there is one person who apparently can read me like a book and he is halfway across the country and when i tell him i am not in love he says "no you are in denial. you are in love and you're scared to death of the outcome. you were hurt before and you never want to feel that way again. so let down your walls and open up to him. i promise you wont be disappointed."


i am scared to death. and its hard for me to admit that. i'm so afraid he will leave me crying and heartbroken like josh did.

but here i go....


let the walls fall.